Posted by John16 on May 30, 2001:
In Reply to: Re: When Things Are Alright, It's Tough. posted by Beth on May 30, 2001:
Whats up Seek. I know exactly what you are talking about when you don't feel like you are repulsed/disgusted enough. I have been trying my hardest to make myself worry about these gay thoughts I have been having lately. But I can't be repulsed. I mean right now I feel like I am sure I am a gay because of how real these thoughts are, but its like i can barely even worry about it. I am really doubting it being OCD now. I feel like I have no interest in girls and I want to participate in gay activities. These thoughts seem so real. I have always only liked girls before but now I wonder if its all changed. Seek, have you experienced thoughts that seem so realistic. And even with all this in my mind, I am barely even worried or disgusted. Its making me mad and feel like I am accepting being a gay. Well I got to go.