Right. We all have excuses. That's why we all need psychs.
God is in the present. He is everyone around you. Life is tough.
You are right - no one is waiting at the end of the road. That
isn't why we trudge on. What have you done for someone else?
Have you volunteered to cook at a soup kitchen? Have you volunteered
to sweep up after senior meetings? Screw the scriptures.
Work to help others. I know it's difficult, feeling as you do.
Try to keep your mouth shut, observe rather than insert yourself.
Your are not irrelevant unless you let yourself be so. You don't
have to do that. You can make something of your life. And you're
right, pretty much all of of here have similar problems. As my
third grade teacher told me, Life is what you make of it.
Keep on truckin'.